argh

damn it. by the end of feb, i'll be free from all restrictions cos it's gonna mark e end of my army life. no more band, no more gaying arnd.

=(

im supposed to be happy! cos i'll be free till uni starts in aug. but mummy's asking me to look for a job!!!!! maybe i shld. even baby's working, so maybe i really shld. but wat can i do? teach music? ok someone employ me. but it's kinda an irony, tt i hated having music lessons when i was younger, n now im gonna teach some kid who's most likely gonna hate me as well. as much as i love music, i hate having piano lessons, even now. gg for those crappy abrsm piano exams was such a chore. n to make it worse, the bloody examiner failed me when i was in grade8. no mercy on me!!!! yucksss

or maybe i shld help ppl look aft their dogs when they are away. that'll b fun i hope?

or go back to acs barker n teach music? or acs(i) since they hav mep? or my beloved acjc since they hav mep as well?

but, do they all want me? im making myself sound popular amongst all the employers. hahahaha! crap shit.

anyway, any suggestions?!

damn doggies

damn.

i reached home after sending baby home.

i opened the door to the dogs' room. i see no dogs.

i returned to my room n got a shock of my life.

beanie and jojo were in my room and guess what were they doing??????????!!!!!

other than the mess they made out of my room, they were climbing all over my chin-up bar!!! OMFG i really feel like killing the 2dogs now. i need to repair those scratches. ok not me, the repairman, but still! DAMN. and i hav to pack my already messy like shit room. seriously, i cant bear to look into my wardrobe cos i stupidly couldnt be bothered to close the door to the wardrobe when i left my room. well, i hope only my clothes are messed up. not my shoe rack and belts and mirror and table...... omg this is freaking me out! i shall ask my maid to tell me what my wardrobe looks like when she cleans my room tmr.

Dogs are scary. i shall lock their loo and not let them bathe for days. and switch off their air con n spoil their playground =(

omg im sounding childish here. but..... my chin up bar and wardrobe!!!!!!!

JELLY BEAN AND JOBBER, I'M NOT GONNA FREN YOU FOR 3 DAYS!

emo's out!

omg i jus read my own blog.

i sounded damn freakin emo.

it's so..... not me. and when did i started typing in full with all my CAPS up? hohohooo.

alright, now i guess im back to normal, not tt i was ever abnormal, but it was jus some problem that i had to settle n control. ok ok i'll stop this.

anw im gg out later to watch curse of the golden flower and i know it's in god damn chinese n im slow in interpreting whatever they're gonna say in the movie cos my chinese is jus louya. n i bet they're gonna speak real fast since it's set in the Tang dynasty??? oh wat crap shit. so whatever it is, i got myself an interpreter!!!! n i know baby's irritated w me but we still love each other so yes. hahahahhaa.

i luv it that we're still so close. isnt it great for something like tt to happen even after we've declared a cool off period? whoa it's really really fantastic. it's like a first time experience for me. none of my other relationships ended like this. they were all crap. i guess we're the best ever. hahahaha.

All's fine

I guess things are still going on fine.

We're still friends. But if our friends didn't know about it, then so be it. I mean telling them does no change to their lives at all. So what's the point? We agreed on this. So yeah, Baby's still my girlfriend and Gay Shit's still her boyfriend. We're perfectly fine with that. We're happy with each other's company, we're just in this ambiguous state that we can't seem to figure out. Maybe too complicated for us to handle. But if either of us ever meets someone better, we'll be frank about it. We've always been, in fact. She has always been very honest with me about whatever she feels.

It might be a wishy-washy affair to some, but I think we're managing fine. We're still how we used to be. We're gonna do something exciting this weekend before she starts work, calling Clif and Chris, you're invited dudes!!! Meeting up for drinks tonight and we shall discuss about it. Anw guys we shld really go back to AC soon ya, and terrorise the new kids in Band like how we always did. Omfg did i jus say that?! Oh whatever come on dudeeeeessss, we'll rock to the beat and party our asses off.

2007

It's a new year, so everything's gotta be new.

I'm gonna be a NSMan in 3 months' time. How cool is that?

Abandoned the other blog for this. Abandoned many other old stuff for new ones.

But I never ever wanted this to happen. I don't ever wanna abandon her for someone new. But she told me just days before the new year that... we should cool off. I know she didn't mean it, she just wanted me to settle some stuff. I don't blame her for that, I know she meant well. And I know deep down in our hearts, we still care for each other. It's just a matter of time, for her to really understand her feelings, and I'll gladly wait as long as she's ready and happy.

What's more, she still goes out with me, she still tells me stuff and I still love her. We still behave like how we used to. No awkwardness, no worries and that's what I really want us to feel. Don't be confused nor feel miserable baby, just follow your heart, and I'll not let anyone jeopardise our relationship. I know she can be a really good friend, to me and to you, and I know you're feeling sore about it, that explains everything. But love is selfish and I really hope things will get better after some cooling-off time. And I hope she'll really understand.

I'm sorry I wasn't there to protect you from people you're afraid of. But hey you managed to deal with him yourself. Maybe I can help you return the keyring to him. Hahaha.

Have a good year ahead peeps.